Life

I don't know what to expect out this muthafucka.  Ups, downs, climbing from one mountain to the next, I have no clue what's going on.  The twist and turns that I have been experiencing are something magical but I can't help but be scarred.

Maybe because I'm afraid of change?...  Maybe because I've lost something?...  If I knew the answer I wouldn't be writting this, right?...  Maybe the answer has been right in front of me this whole time?

I'm definetly changing for the better no doubt about it.  I'm fully focused on my goals, I'm more positive than I ever been, I'm actually finding some spiritual peace, I'm becoming...  Me, if you will.

I don't even know what's happening or how any of this happened.  It all started in January when I finally let go.  I let go of my past, my pain, my old thoughts.  Demons that had been plaguing me for soo long, I've banished them.  It was like a new beginning, a rebirth maybe.

I always wanted peace.  Peace for the world was always my goal, but I've realized in order to achieve peace for world, I must achieve peace for myself. 

I'm no longer fighting myself, if you will.  I'm now aiding myself.  I'm taking life one step at a time, realizing that taking life slow is better than rushing everything.  Life, the Universe, God, whatever you want to call it is guiding me no matter what.

The old Joe isn't dead at all, instead the old Joe has evolved.

I'm growing...

This journey that I'm still in the early stages of is exciting, it's brand new.  I didn't think I could fully be like this...  Woah...

I feel an unconditional Love has entered my heart.  A Love that I want to spread to the world, but first I'm understanding what it means to Love yourself.

Of course I always loved myself, why the fuck wouldn't I?!  But now...  I appreciate myself.

I'm appreciating myself, my loved ones and most importantly Life.  If I could kiss Life I would french that bitch sloppy!

It's like everything is coming together, it ain't perfect but I'm enjoying what I have and I'm going to make it better.  Me as a man, as a person, is growing.

Love.Peace.Happiness is all I've been preaching.  I don't mean to be a preacher but sometimes you just got to.   Sometimes you have to let people know a way of life that can help improve theirs.

I want to help.  That's all I really want to do.  Yes, I have my own personal goals and aspirations but helping is all I want to do.  Sometimes I do feel like I help others way more than I help myself but I'm trying to find the right balance where everything can be accomplished and we can all come out this muthafucka as Champions. 

Kings and Queens maybe even Gods of our own.

I'm being the best person I can be.  Not the best the world or society wants me to be or what YOU want me to be, but the best that I can be.  I want everyone to feel the same way, if not that than BETTER!

I'm always learning now, I'm always changing, I'm always getting stronger.  Strength in my Mind, Body and Soul.

This thing called 'Life' is a funny muthafucka, hilarious if you will, but you never know what you might get.

Just let me live...