Same Old, Same Old: Hope Can Be Dope

This is the part where I fall in Love again.
This is the end and where it all begins.
This is how I fall apart again.
These are mistakes and I never learn from them.
But sometimes a glimmer of hope is all that you'll need.
So I keep on trying until it's alright.

Every September, a new flame ignites.
Every October, a conflict comes to light.
Every November, I decide what's worth the fight.
Every December, a struggle brings me new Life.
But I hope this coming January, I can find the one to marry.
The days and months that are going by gives me hope that it's worth the time.
Maybe I just need wait for "the right time" where I lock eyes with you and I and we just know we're each others 'mine'...or that's just fantasy?

It can hurt when you have more to give, but I have to keep my strong heart in...but really it's to the world.

Win this prize and you might be surprised how much I can give Love in such super size.  I might show a brick wall but the hasn't been a wall that could reach the sky and neither one that could wrap the earth.  So are up for my travels?  Can you walk with me to anywhere?  And can you stand with me no matter how shaggy I get?

I hope so.

;-)

It was a long time ago...yesterday.

You always held a torch to my heart.
Days and years past and I still don't feel apart from you.
I still remember the way you kiss.
Your touch was so soft and Loving.
A delicious poison you were, yet some days I fantasize about you saying, "You Love me." again.

Our moments were never like fine wine, they were always more like 6 shots of vodka,mixing whisky and Hennessey.  It might sound fun, we might have fun but towards the end of that night and the next morning, we're going to regret it.

Could there be another day for us?
We'll never know.
Will there be fantasies about each other?
We probably do everyday.
Can we talk to each other and converse like the old days?
I'm starting to think the 'familiar stranger' approach is better.
Would I feel anger, regret, pain and sadness if we would ever say "hi" again?
No...actually a very pleasant smile will come about my face.

I sure do hope we can have another conversation where we leave in a good mood.  I don't like to Live with ill feelings towards anybody or having awkward, uncomfortable moments with someone that meant soo much to me.  I would Love to have that closure with you before either of us pass away. 

I don't want to hear about you passing and get upset and regret that we didn't close that casket with each other and made it water under the bridge.  I don't want soo much time to pass that when I do hear about your passing it means nothing to me but a distant memory.  I hope you feel the same way, so we can be on the same page when we come together face to face...maybe I just need to relieve myself of these strong emotions of you but never forget the memory of you.

It was a short time in our Lives but a lot of lessons were learned and growth was made.  We needed that moment.  We were both in make or break moments in our Lives.  We found pillows within each other for us.  We had terrible moment but still had this weird trust for each other.

But....

You're over there and I'm over here.
It might have been a long time ago but sometimes I want to shed tears for you.
Old memories and emotions arise.
To my surprise, I judge my next mates off the standard you made.
You probably thought you were lower but really you I held you over everything.
I hope one day I can think of you and not bring back emotions of you.
But maybe that's because I never felt a Love like you before.
You could've been more but now you're in the past.
I hope to see you one day and on that day I hope that we can reassure each other that everything is OK.