Emotionally, I've been crying.  Physically, stronger than I ever been.  One day I would love to feel the balance of both at its prime.  Lately it has been external forces bringing me down.  A lot of passive aggressive and indirect people in my Life I've been weeding out from friends, family and others.  I absolutely hate that shit.  I gave sensitive folks hell for a long time but it's not sensitive people I need to avoid.  It's indirect passive aggressive cunts.

You can't be at my age or older still unsure how to approach people based on your own doubts.  The bullshit is that these people will front like they're sooo strong but when one slight obstacle gets in their way, they run the fuck away like they're higher and self-righteous to the shit they're involved in and help make as well.  That's not strength of knowing what's best for yourself.  That's fear of your own bullshit.

I'm a very direct person and almost tactless to how I approach people with my issues because if there really is a problem, lets settle it asap and not let it build up one bit.  Dealing with indirect and unaccountable people, they will never take their own blame.  Why are you soo afraid of consequence?  Did you really think you would go through Life and completely avoid it?  Fuck you, you pussies.

I can deal with an honest sensitive person.  It's the dishonest ones that will get you fucked up because you expect pure strength and they can't even muster what their words said at will.  Soo many issues can be resolved by talking directly.  The older I get, the more I understand it's not tactless to be as direct as I was.  IT WAS NEEDED.  Of course, dealing with other 20somethings makes that difficult because everyone is learning.  At 30+, nah fam, let's get to the point.  The more I find older folks that disagree with this, I always find a fear of others.  How are you 35-40+ but still can't be direct or got to wait for a perfect moment to fucking talk?

Not my issue to live with though in the end lol.  Y'all had your moment but it's dead.