Isolating myself won't help this time.  A lonely journey might be the wave.  Just to get away while doing something.  I long for solace right now.  Is it my own head or am I right?  And I really don't want to be right.  Just going to let Life play out, keep my composure and take care of myself.  PEACE!!

TAKE THIS DARKNESS, EVIL, NEGATIVITY WHATEVER AWAY FROM ME!!!  The conflict is killing me....I don't like it.  I HATE IT!!!  I don't want it.  You can have it.  This shit ain't cool.  I repressed a lot of anger for the greater good of myself and others.  I know I'm not good tonight because I'm saying, "fuck the greater good" to myself.  I must control myself even more because this outcome would not be good for myself, fuck others at this point.  I got to live for me!!  This is my Life.  I don't care how anyone looks at it.
You don't have to live with me but I have no other choice but to live with my decisions.  If I end up alone, I hope it's for my greater good.  Selfish but I have to live for myself.  KILL THIS EVIL IN ME!!!!  I DON'T LIKE IT!!!