TAKE THIS DARKNESS, EVIL, NEGATIVITY WHATEVER AWAY FROM ME!!!  The conflict is killing me....I don't like it.  I HATE IT!!!  I don't want it.  You can have it.  This shit ain't cool.  I repressed a lot of anger for the greater good of myself and others.  I know I'm not good tonight because I'm saying, "fuck the greater good" to myself.  I must control myself even more because this outcome would not be good for myself, fuck others at this point.  I got to live for me!!  This is my Life.  I don't care how anyone looks at it.
You don't have to live with me but I have no other choice but to live with my decisions.  If I end up alone, I hope it's for my greater good.  Selfish but I have to live for myself.  KILL THIS EVIL IN ME!!!!  I DON'T LIKE IT!!!