Fuck it.  Whatever.  Eh.  *shrugs*

Phrases like this keep me going but when shit flies into the fan, it feels shit having to say those things.  Fuck it, whatever, eh, *shrugs*.  I gave you my heart but fuck it.  I was willing to do whatever for, whatever.  Where's your clarity?  Eh.  What did you want from me?  *shrug*

I tried to get artsy with that but fuck it, whatever, eh, *shrugs*.......fuck off, that was better than the first.

Patience is a virtue because you need that for every single thing you're ever going to do.  But....deaf ears.  I'm especially a person, who requires patience for self and reciprocated.  I remain as calm as I can be but that calm is always sensitive.  I react with such emotion, my truth burst out.  Fuck it, whatever.  I just keep it moving and focus on my next move.  "Am I going grocery shopping?"

Why linger on bullshit?  This bullshit got me tonight.  Hope I can simply sleep it off but who knows.  If I feel you, I feel you.  I don't play with my love.  Love is something that's been really awesome in my Life but when it hurts...fuck.  You take the good with the bad though.  This is balance and reality.  Could I really expect a forever paradise?  I strive for it but I know the shit.  In this situation, I damn sure knew it was far from paradise.  No risk, no reward though and I'm glad I got to take a glimpse at you.  It's pretty cool.

......fuck it, whatever........eh *shrugs*